I need everyones help.... [23 Mar 2007|09:27pm] We are looking for a sperm donor....will any of you help us? 1 LicK| give me a LicK

I need everyones help.... [23 Mar 2007|09:21pm] This is my girlfriend and I. I haven't been on here in almost a year or two. well anyways...that girl that I used to talk about this is her. We're going on 3 years. So everyone who reads this. We are looking for sperm donors.... We don't know any guys so we turned to here. I want to know if anyone will help us out. We just are going to do it by needle-less syringe :D feel free to email me: babydyke87@gmail.com -Shelly give me a LicK

[19 May 2005|04:05pm] [ music | All That Got- The Used ] .been soooo busy lately.it totally .s.u.c.k.s. .a.s.s. ugh. Rosi and I are just PERFECT. God I Love Her Soooo Much. I'm going to see her for the first time July 17th to July 31st. I'm going to spend my birthday with her. For all of those who don't know my birthday it's July 25th. :-D I miss lil pink cunt. :-( I miss everyone really. I hope no one forgot about me. if you guys ever want to get ahold of me just im me on aim bebeluvnu4eva16. that's the best way to get to me. - Shel 6 LicKs| give me a LicK

Why [09 May 2005|04:33pm] why does it hurts so bad that it brings tears to my eyes breaks my heart shattering it to peices why can't I understand that you cannot help it cannot help the way you feel why can't I see it maybe because everything I see is behind blurry vision I want it to be you and I and maybe sometime it will be but until then I will have to understand. Poem I just write right now. Yours For Eternity, Shelly AKL 1 LicK| give me a LicK

[03 May 2005|11:36pm] I'm torn. I don't know what to think. what to do. Rosi and I are good but she's been acting weird lately and I'm not sure why. Well I have an idea but it just scares me. I don't want to keep asking her but i have a feeling she's feeling someone else. :-/ I don't want to think that but it's the truth. She's been really busy lately. She has 2 weeks of school left. I just don't know anymore. I don't understand. why? when you used to say 'I love you' you said it with meaning now you say it and all I feel is blah like you are confused I don't want to even think about another. and yes today is the 3rd which is the day you and her hooked up :'( but I don't want to believe that you two are still together because you're mine. all mine. [victory is mine] (sorry trying to spice up the sadness) I want us to talk about this. Tomorrow [the 4th] is 1 year 3 monthes. :D well not quiet through the whole 1 year 3 monthes but still. We've known eachother for that long. Well I'm rambling I just want to know baby girl. I want to know what's been bugging you lately. It's like your not the one I fell in love with not the one I make love to not the one I say "I love you" to You're different it scares me a little I don't want to lose you I don't want to lose us we made it too far to let go now I understand feelings are still present :-/ no matter how much it hurts to say that I know it's true I feel it But I don't want to have to think oh is she thinking about me while we're making love while we're talking while we're laughing I'm sorry it's just I want to love you but for the past couple days it hasn't been you Rosi you're not the one I fell in love with I want her back I want to make love to the one I love the one I'd give my life up to Everything is so confusing I love you Rosina GLK 10:05 pm give me a LicK

NATIONALS [15 Apr 2005|05:12pm] We're back from states for Organ Donating. We received 3rd place and we'll be going to nationals at the end of June. I'm totally excited. We received a medal around each of our [4 people] necks and a trophy for our trophy case. Thank you to everyone who bought a bracelet. I love u all. :-D I Love Rosina. -Shelly give me a LicK

She Left... [21 Mar 2005|11:40pm] [ mood | Rosina You & I are ONE ] [ music | Finally Found Someone- Bryan Adams ] God all I can do is think about her...I miss her soo god damn much. She's in Switzerland right now until friday :( i can't wait til she comes back. Her mommy called me today and told me that she misses me and that it's hard to find a phone around there. And that she's okay and is having fun. I wish I could see her sooner than summer but it'll just have to do. It'll go by fast thank god. She's my wife. She's my lover. I love her soooo fucking much. It's quiet unbelievable. "I finally found someone, who knocks me off my feet; I finally found the one who makes me feel complete... This is it! Oh, I finally found someone; Someone to share my life; I finally found the one - to be with every night; Cause whatever I do It's just got to be you! My life has just begun, I finally found someone... I would wait forever Just to know you were mine; Ya Know - I love your hair... Are you sure it looks right? I love what you wear... Isn't it too tight? You're exceptional! I can't wait for the rest of my life... I Love You Rosina!:-*" That's one of my away messages that I just made for her. Here's another: I want it to be just you and me. believe me i will get you back, no matter how hard i gotta try you belong to me we're supposed to be together forever you and me I love you with all my heart I have never felt this way never I love the way you make me feel it's so good so real I can't say anything it's like you take my breath away I can't speak I get butterflies my heart beats fast sometimes i can't take it it hurts to watch you be with her and me be here and watching you I want you here with me I want you to be mine be mine only mine I fell hard for you I fell in love now I can't stop f  a    l     l      i       n        g I Love You Rosi" I believe I made that from a journal entry. "I recalled when we first met, a long Time ago. how could I forget the way I felt, when I first laid eyes on You. I remember saying to my friends, There is my future wife; and then, i Took the steps to meet someone who Would change my life. It had to be my destiny Cuz, I was made to love you/my hands To touch you/my arms to hold you/my legs To stand/my time to spend,with you Forever. I was made, made to love you. My lips to kiss you/my eyes to see You/my legs to stand/my time to spend With you forever and ever. I was made [i was made] made to love you [made to Love you.] Oh , forever and ever. how long is Eternity? that’s how long we’ll be Together." "I Love You Sooooooo Much Rosi. As long as you come home to me. ;-) I love you, come home. I wish I could be with you I keep f  a    l     l      i       n        g ever since 02.04.04 (¯`·.·´¯) (¯`·.·´¯)  `·.¸(¯`·.·´¯)¸ .·´ ×° ×` ·.¸.·´ ×°×" I don't regret ever falling in love with Rosina. Not one bit. I am soooooo happy I did. She's an amazing girl and I can spend the rest of my life with her. I want to start a family with her and be happy. It just sucks that right now we have to be apart but I know she'll come home to me. Like she said. "I Love You. Come To Bed. Tonight Is Forever. The Future. I See The Future In Your Eyes" You might be like why in the world is the word "eyes" in brown. The reason is because her eyes are brown. ;) God I Love You Sooooo Fucking Much Rosina GLK. You're my wife for now and for eternity. I love you baby and no minute, not even seconds go by that I don't think of you. You're always on my mind. Your Wife, Shelly AKL 10 LicKs| give me a LicK

bracelets [19 Mar 2005|10:19pm] I recieved one persons money order. It was xall_alonex I didn't receive anything in the mail today. I'll keep checking. I leave for MD wed. so I won't be able to check my mail so I'm sorry. I will be back the 28th. I also leave the 30th for FL until April 8th. I'm sorry for the delay to everyone's I received. - Shelly 8 LicKs| give me a LicK

now they add [17 Mar 2005|11:55pm] Me and Alexis. AWwe  pic of my mommy and vickie  another pic of my mommy and vickie I forget which one's i put on the other entry. :-D  There I am painting with alexis 1 LicK| give me a LicK

Updated Pictures [17 Mar 2005|11:27pm] Finally I have updated pictures of me. These were taken' I believe Tues.  I'm in the back you hardly can see me but oh well  That's my mommy with Alexis. Awwe they're sooo cute. I have more but i'll post them tomorrow they're not uploading right now 1 LicK| give me a LicK

Still on the mission [16 Mar 2005|10:27pm] [ mood | I Love You Rosina ] [ music | Sweat- Inner Circle ] :still on the mission of love: I don't know why I get so jealous of Rosi having Chris. I guess it just bugs me. I want her to be mine. And only mine. Yeah Yeah I'm greedy. So sue me. ;) I just looked at her deviant and there's a picture of Rosi laying on her bed biting her lip. :/ hm. I don't know. I'm not gunna fret. Schools been keeping me busy. I go to the docs tomorrow for something. [personal] I don't wanna decuss it. I'll let you all know about it later. I hope it's not serious. I wish I was out of school. I just wanna pack up and leave. My life is so confusing. Why is love so hard? I don't understand. Rosi and I go through soooo much shit that most relationships don't. But I believe all the shit we did go through brought us much much closer. And yes again I lost her because of my stupidity. And once again I'm trying to get her back. I know I won't always be able to get her back. So I gotta stop being what I was before. I want to settle down and start my life. I hate girl hoppin [that's what I call it] If it wasn't for going to see uhh yeah her Rosi and I would still be together and then I wouldn't be worried about or even have to go to the doc but it happened and now I gotta deal. I want it to be just you and me. believe me i will get you back, no matter how hard i gotta try you belong to me we're supposed to be together forever you and me I love you with all my heart I have never felt this way never I love the way you make me feel it's so good so real I can't say anything it's like you take my breath away I can't speak I get butterflies my heart beats fast sometimes i can't take it it hurts to watch you be with her and me be here and watching you I want you here with me I want you to be mine be mine only mine I fell hard for you I fell in love now I can't stop f  a    l     l      i       n        g I Love You Rosi give me a LicK

Donate Life Bracelets [12 Mar 2005|12:46pm] These are bracelets I'm selling for a $1 if your interested in buying one leave me a tag with your e-mail address and i'll send you my address. About the bracelet: Color: green [light, lime] Size: fits all [one size] Saying Side 1: Donate Life Saying Side 2: Done Vida [Spanish] I have alot so don't hesitate to order if you want one. The money goes to me and my community awareness project to send us to States [April 13,14,15] 2 LicKs| give me a LicK

BIRL SECRET SANTA [07 Mar 2005|07:52pm] BY THE WAY WHO EVER WAS MY SECRET SANTA I LOVE YOU FOR THE PLUGS. I'M WEARING EM RIGHT NOW. give me a LicK

My Experience in the shower [11 Jan 2005|10:49pm] [ mood | all my troubles ] Okay the title may come as a sexual thing to you but it's not believe me... Let's start at the very beginning...well I didn't shave at all. Like yes I trimmed and shaved my face but not my underarms or my area or even my legs. I felt okay. But I was getting mad fun of for it. So I really sat down and thought about everything. Here's what my decision was: I figured out that not only is dressing like a guy make you a guy either is not shaving make you a guy. In the shower I thought and I shaved everything. My legs, my area, my armpits back to what I was comfortable with. no hair. I'm growing my hair out a little bit so I can get cornrows. I want to see what they will look like and if they don't look good then I'll try something new. Like my journal says. I'm searching for who I am. I hardly wear the packie anymore. I haven't worn it in 2 days and I like it that way. It's not comfortable and it pulled the hair that i had. well nevermind you don't wanna know about my hair. lol. anyways. I still like the name Trey and I'll keep that for the new people who know me. But my friends here call me Shelly and it's been like that since 6th grade. Well there's my update. - Shelly/Trey 18 LicKs| give me a LicK

Strangle Me [10 Jan 2005|08:29pm] [ mood | crushed ] [ music | I Must Be Crazy ] I'm sooo close of just giving up... Sandy and I were talking on the phone. I was talking about what's going to happen between us and she was like I gotta go. I go know I'm not done talking to you. I go do you just want to stop before it gets any harder for us because it's going to. She told me she's falling deeper each time. I don't want to hurt her but I never see her. Nor talk to her. I asked her over the summer if she would sneak out and she goes I can't. She leaves me no other chance. Than to just let her go and try to watch her walk away out of my life. :tears roll down my cheek: It hurts sooooo bad to hurt myself and see her hurt. She cut again and i even asked her. She said no. And then she told me on the phone it's from Friday and I go is this the first time I saw it she goes yeah. I got mad because she lied to me. I hate life right now. I was scheduled to work yesterday and I called monday saying I couldn't work and Wayne told Sandy that I'm fired and I just called my work. And the manager Kelly answered and I go I wasn't supposed to come in yesterday because i told Tom monday that I couldn't work because I was taking my sister to Bloomsburg. And I even reminded Tom saturday night that I couldn't come in. She was being all mean to me saying "so you no showed" I'm like "no I called monday and said i couldn't" ...take me from this misery... .X. hold me and never let me go .X. 6 LicKs| give me a LicK

2 my Younger sis [05 Jan 2005|04:24pm] I hate that bitch. I'm here for my sister til' the end I love you with all my heart no matter how many times we fight, argue, everything you have to live with I'm here for you. Don't let anyone and I mean ANYONE. Do anything bad to you again. Believe me I got your back, girl. We're gunna grow up and be old. Go through everything in life together. Don't do wrong. Just keep ya head up. I love you. - Trey 2 LicKs| give me a LicK

New and Improved [03 Jan 2005|08:49pm] [ mood | confused ] [ music | Is that your chick ] I made my own home made harness. It's like http://store.yahoo.com/bebrief/bunng.html but instead I used these two rainbow shoes laces and I tied it around my waist and since i'm skinny it works. I don't have money nor time to go to the store and buy a jock strap so this will have to do. I was looking in the mirror and I saw it connected to me and I really liked how I looked. But then I was wondering. How much is it to have surgery and will it actually work like everything? I don't want to rush into things but I would really like to start searching for more information on surgery and becoming a male. I already know somethings. But not nearly as much as I need to know. I bind and wear guy clothes and pass as a boy, pack as a boy. I don't look like a man cause I don't have hair no matter how many times I shave :-( I wish I'd show a little hair but it's not going through. Oh well I have a little on my mustache area. ;-) to the sides. Well I'm going to go chill for a little. I'm mad bored. I saw my girl for the first time in 2 weeks. We went in the bathroom [yes i know it's dumb but it's the only place without her sister or anyone seeing] and well we made out and then it was time for her to go. Something bothered me today though...after math she shoved me this piece of paper and it was full of Sandy and Trey. That's not what bothered me. What bothered me was that on the way out she threw it away. It's like damn thanks. It hurt and I was like "You're throwing it away" and she goes "well yeah" that just made it seem like "us" is not longer important to her. I really like this girl alot and I know that I only have a few more months until it has to end. :'( I want to make the best out of it. She's sooo different though. It's like I don't know if I did something or if it's just I'm scared. Scared of getting hurt. But today she walked in with Wayne the guy I work with and she was all flirty with him and shit and it was just like okay. Sometimes she even ignores me like I'm not there, like when Mona is around. Mona is this bi girl in my shop and they are in the same math class cause i'm in two higher classes than them. Mona is in my grade and she has a boyfriend and all but when those two are together it's like it's no longer me and sandy. They're always touching eachother and shit and they talk about [all nighters and doing shit with eachother] they quote as jokes but i'm not sure anymore. I'm not sure because last time I asked her "Do you like mona?" she goes "no she's just a friend" but then I see with my own eyes. And shit runs through my head. I get sooo heated I just want to walk away and never look back. It burns in my heart when I see them together. I'm done before I burn a hole in my heart...all I want is a girl like you and now that I have you I don't want you to leave... - Trey 3 LicKs| give me a LicK

I miss her so [01 Jan 2005|10:21pm] My baby called me when I was at work. She sounded different then she sounded like herself. I go Wayne told me you and him make out on the bus in the back and she was like what. and i go i'm jk. I need to finish the cd case that i'm making for her cd's. I wish we talked more. We only talked for like 10 mins. And I go I wanna see you tomorrow. I hate not seeing you. We haven't seen eachother in almost two weeks. At the end she goes shit my dad just pulled in the drive way I love you I go I love you too [we both sounded sad] and then we said bye. :-/ I hate this. I can't stand it anymore. I want to be with her as much as possible but it's impossible to hang out with her. I go I want to see you tomorrow she goes my dad doesn't work. Does that mean when her dad works we can see eachother. Cause I really want to. I'll see her monday for the first time in 2 weeks. I can't wait I'm going to hold her and never let her go. This depresses me she doesn't even try to hang out with me. I'm not sure why. She never says I want to see you. I always say I want to see you today and she goes me too. :-/ I don't know if that's good or bad. But still. I want to see her sooo much. It's been too long it's ripping me apart. :shivers: alone by myself without her holding me .X. I want her to hold me, love me, and never leave .X. ..Trey.. 7 LicKs| give me a LicK

[01 Jan 2005|03:26am] [ mood | good night all ] Our lovely creation of New Years cookies. ( wonderful ey ) Hope you enjoyed our cooking. We really did a shitty job. We weren't meant to make cookies on New Years Eve night. - Trey 1 LicK| give me a LicK

[01 Jan 2005|12:46am] [ mood | I miss my baby I <3 You, Sandy ] [ music | Yaga y Mackie ] took two shots of kamakazi *can't spell* for the new year I hope me and my girl stay strong. Since I haven't really wrote about her. her name: Sandy her age: 15 *yes I know she's a youngy* her school: in a different high school but we go to tech together ;) her personality: funny, sweet. she's everything i ever wanted in a girl her physical traits: georgious brown eyes, red/brownish hair, she has freckles [which i believe are beautiful], she's mexican so she speaks spanish. I love when she speaks spanish it's sooo cute. I love when she calls me Trey. mmm her lips are sooo perfect. She's skinny but has meat on her bones so she's not boney like me. She's got a nice ass. :) it's all in the ass. Jk. Things I dig about her: everything of course. But when she kisses and bites my neck it sends a chill up my spine. I love our we just fall into eachothers arms. It's perfect. I love just holding her in my arms. Wrapping my arms around her hips. Kissing her neck. Her lips. grazing her hand with mine. We try not to make it noticable because her sister doesn't know. But we've been together for almost two months. It'll be two months Jan 17. Well maybe not almost but still. I miss her sooo much. We can't hang out ever. We only see eachother in school and I haven't seen her since I got out of school for break. Which was almost two weeks ago. I can't wait to go back. that's something you'll hear me say alot but that's only because I want to see her. I'm downloading reggaeton music so I can put it on a cd for her and me. I already made her 2 cds of all the songs that remind me of her and I. I'm giving it to her monday when we go back. I have math homework to do. shit. I still didn't do it. If any one is good in math I'd appreicate help. Anyone who helps I'll offer to make them a tag. Well my computer is slowing down from downloading too many songs at once. I'll write more soon. -Sandy's Boi, <3 Trey <3 give me a LicK

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